02 juli 2000 |
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Hello
Atlantis Mixed emotions, I told you before. Not everything is going smoothly in my live, at the moment. Maybe I should tell you first about this. At work, most collegues are women. Somehow, that works fine for a few years, but then things are getting slowly unpleasant in our working together. I’m pretty perfectionist, and the first few years that doesn't seem to be a problem. But then it starts to bother some of my colleges, I guess. It’s
the second time now, that a few people at work start to ignore me. This
time I decided I shouldn’t walk away from it. So I tried to talk with
them about it. Seemed they found it all right to ignore me. And yes,
they were irritated because I tried to do my work to good. Wish I had
the skin of an elephant, but I haven’t. So I feel very hurt, and I
don’t know how I can deal with this. Wish I could be a bitch too, or
that I could get really mad, but it’s not my character. It costs me so much energy. Every day I have to go to work, I go with a heavy hart. I feel so bad about it, that I’m thinking about looking for another job, or maybe start to study again. I would be so glad if I hadn’t had to work in a ‘women team’ anymore. |
Women often act in
an underhand way. My problem is that I refuse to do likewise. It would
give me the feeling I had to sell my soul. I
often do things in my live that are unusual, or at least not accepted by
the community. I guess it’s more important for me to stay close to
myself, then to be accepted by a group. Still it doesn’t mean they can’t hurt me… Actually,
I planned to tell you something else, but I’m not quit in the mood for
that.
I called her again, and we met at a terrace.
The
meeting was so nice, I forgot all my problems. I’ll tell you about it
some other time, when I’m in the mood. It’ll be nicer for you too,
when I tell you then. Thira
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